RANT

Who do you think you are?

I mean really.

You are so fucking afraid of yourself. It was kind of funny to start with, but now.. it's just annoying. You talk yourself up like you're some sort of big deal, and really you're a scared little boy who can't connect with anyone. You're afraid to get hurt. What you're failing to realize is that you cannot control other people's destiny. Not everything is going to fit into the box that you think it should.

You make me angry. Frustrated. You're giving me an ulcer.


STOP IT.

And yes, this is about you.

What time is it?

It's about that time.

I had a dream about Big last night. I woke up this morning with something close to a broken heart. I've done so well with putting that to rest, but apparently I'm not done processing.

I'm trying to move forward.. move on.. but I loved this man. With everything that I had. In my dream, we were lying in bed. Talking like we used to. He told me that his life was back in order, and he missed me. He loved me. He was sorry.

Then I asked why he came back, and he gave me the same shit he always has. "Things are crazy. I don't even want to get into it."

/le sigh

I know nothing has changed. Someday soon, it will not hurt. Someday, it will just.. stop.

Just not today.

Shop Shop Shop

OMG.

I spent $350 in a matter of 10 minutes. Seriously.

Here's what was purchased:

DVD/VHS Combo - Mom
2 shirts - Mom
4 CD's (2 Il Divo, Josh Groban, Teddy Pendergrass) - Mom
Digital Picture Frame - Dad
Digital Coffee Cup- Dad
2 PC games (Bejewelled and some other mind game)- Mom
2 PC games (Ringtone Maker and Restaurant Tycoon)- ME!
X-men Trilogy - ME!
Random Foods for Baskets- All


Seriously. I can shop.

More soon!

Yadda Yadda

OMG.

Can I tell you that I looked SUPER hot for my company holiday party? Yeah. I totally did. My date was super hot as well. Gooood times.

I have got some AMAZING friends. AMAZING.

You know what was the best part about our party? Looking like a DIVA. Ha!

Here are some pics..















There's so many more pics- but I'll post them later..

BACK TO WORK!

Addictions

My name is Shelly. I am addicted to Cheez-its. I know, I know.. it's hard to admit, but my understanding is that the first step to recovery is admission.

I don't know if you people understand, but I freaking LOVE these delicious baked cheese snack crackers. They are salty, tangy, perfect little squares of love.

I am also addicted to cereal. Like, I can eat cereal for every meal. It's CRAZY. Maybe I should go on an all cereal based diet...

Anyhow.


I've decided to start using this blog again. Not so hateful as I used to be.. and this makes me pretty gosh darn happy. I've got some really awesome friends, a great job, working on my craft and back on stage again, and there's just not much I can complain about.

I take that back.. I can complain, but I am choosing not to.

I suppose I should go back to work..