Well, ain't this a pile of shit.

So, things have taken a turn for the worse for my Nana. She initially went in because of intestinal/colon issues and was released last week. Yesterday, my mom ended up taking her back to the hospital. She was beyond weak, mentally confused and complained of burning in her stomach. They scanned her heart and her brain.. nothing. They take her blood.. dangerously low potassium levels along with some internal bleeding.

What the deuce.

She's not going to get better. I logically understand that this is life. It begins.. it ends. My heart has NO idea what to do with this. I'm mourning the loss of who she was and trying to learn who she is. I don't like it. It hurts more than I can express.

I'm trying to remember the good and funny things about her. How she can take the simplest common quote and screw it all up. ( Mija, get up early you eat the worms ) How she had a smile that would light up any room. Her eyes sparkled at the sight of her family. I remember on a trip to Marfa to visit her mother's grave, I played Long Time Gone by the Dixie Chicks and she was hootin' and hollerin' in the backseat of the car. How she used to dance with me. Taught me how to make tortillas and albondigas. She used to scratch my head and tickle my back. She powdered my booty after every shower. (she still laughs at me for that) She spoiled me. She loved me in a way that no one else could and for that, I'm the luckiest little girl in the world.

So, for now I keep going. I support and love her in the best way I can. I need to be there for my Mommy. I need to be there for me...

Sorry this post is so disjointed. I'm just so tired and sad I can't think straight..and I'm just processing...

Feeling Uneasy - Etta James

well, shit.

Slight shit is hitting the fan...

My Nana is in the hospital. This effing blows..

Ok, so I missed a few days..

Nothing much to report here. Halloween was interesting. The Boy and I went to a house party his friend threw. It was more of a house gathering, but was interesting nonetheless. A friend of theirs maybe didn't put together that The Boy and I are a couple as she told me that I should date him.

What?

We'd be cute together.


What what?

I had to break it to her that we've been together for 9 months. It's totally ok to think we'd make a cute couple. DERP.

Yesterday, I had some awesome times. At work, I was running a bit late, so I didn't take any breakfast with me. I thought I could hold out until my lunch, but I failed. I hopped my big booty over to the box buffet (vending machine) and eyeballed some delicious Strawberry Pop Tarts. Mmm... cold Pop Tarts and no milk! YUM! Anyhow, I must have done something retarded or the machine was crazy, but I selected my option and instead of Pop Tarts, I got salted peanuts. WTF. Salted peanuts? Does not want!

I deal with the peanut issue and later in the day I'm craving a Pepsi. Not a Coke, but an actual Pepsi. Once again, I mosey on down to the drink distributor, push the Pepsi button and get WATER. WTF, water??? You are not cool, universe. You basically told me my choices suck and gave me the better option. Damn you, good choices! DAMN YOU!

/end rant

Halloween Spirit and Getting Old

Our office is having a dress up contest today. I had no time to get a costume, so I came as Throwback Shelly. I'm dressed up as a goth. It's a reference back to my old Rocky Horror days!

I fell asleep at 7pm last night on accident. I went to chill out and play some Price Is Right on Facebook and I woke up when my dogs were fighting in my room around 1130. I stayed up for about an hour and then went back to sleep and got up at 445am.  It's been a non-productive day thus far, but I'm super rested. That's always a good thing.

SO.. in other news, The Boy and I are headed out of town in 2 weeks. We're going to Knott's Berry Farm! I haven't been there since I was a kid and it's a helluva lot cheaper than Disneyland. Plus, I'm going to Disneyworld at the end of November with my brother and Pops. I didn't want to over do the sickeningly awesome Disney thing. I'm going to spend Turkey Day in Florida and hope that I don't get stuck in a damn Hurricane. 

I've got nothing interesting to talk about this morning. Give me time.. something will come up.

Kids really do say the darndest things..

Theatre is great. Theatre kids are hilarious. Here's why:

I wanted 2 of my leads to build a strong relationship, so a majority of last night was spent letting them talk to each other about outside things, feelings.. that sort of crap. There was was conversation from last night that had me dying and almost ROFLOLing.

S (who is 14) : If my girlfriend cut off all of her hair, I wouldn't break up with her. I like her that much, so it wouldn't matter.

K (who is 10) : Yeah. It doesn't matter what you look like, it's who you are on inside.

Me: You guys are amazing! I love it!

K: I know I'm only 10, but I have a story to tell you.

Me: Alright, spill yer guts.

K: I had a girlfriend not too long ago and I really liked her. We broke up and it was awful. Do you want to know why we broke up? I'll tell you. She was dating another guy 2-3 weeks before we broke up! It was awful. I hated it.

Me: Oh noes! I'm so sorry that happened to you. ( Internal monologue: WTF! This kid is talking about dating and he's only 10. Holy Shitballs.)

S: Dude, this stuff is going to happen to you when you get older. Trust me, I've been there. You'll be fine.

K: Well , it hurts when you have a big heart.

Me and D: Awww.. oh ... awwwwwww....


What? It hurts, you say? OMG! Your poor little tender, big, 10 year old heart.


Other conversations consisted of guessing my age (50), watching kids talk about spacers in their mouths  (watching one little girl show everyone her spacer by opening her mouth super wide and tilting her head back), the older kids trying to figure out if they are all related so they can create a "super family" and finally the smallest , most adorable girl telling me she wasn't going to read certain parts of the script because she didn't feel like it. She was so cute, I had to let her! Total sucka!!

That's the cutest thing thus far. More funnies to come later...

Wow. I am good with children.

So, last night was my first full rehearsal with my cast of the Littlest Angel. I had no idea how these kids would behave for me.. little angels? Little devils from beyond? The possiblities were endless. It turns out, they were AMAZING. We had to hold a little baby audition because we lost some kids (no, not like lost them at the State Fair and had to call their parents, but they dropped out)  and had to restructure the roles. They were such troopers. My cold heart was warmed by their commitment to this show. Many of them came to me and told me how happy they were to be there. What!!?? Thankful children, you say? I say YES! Amazballs.

I'm sitting here at my place of work not really working, but thinking about what I would rather be doing. Here's a list, in case you were wondering:

-Laundry ( I like clean clothes)
-Sleeping ( fo sho)
-Hanging with The Boy.. I kinda miss him.
-Jamming out to Cake (wait a minute, I'm doing that at work!)
-Actually going to the gym (I hate it when I'm there, but I feel so damn good when I'm done)
-Pondering how the price of tea in China is affected by the recent mild earthquake.
-Picking my nose. I have boogs the size of China.
-Shopping for makeup.

Apparently, I'm a boring old lady.

I need to get a life. Seriously.

Ok, my dear readers.. all 4 of you.. what would you like to hear about today?

Comments are welcomed and appreciated!